i think my best friend is dying

i ve had this great friend since i was about 5 years old, we met at kinder garten and we ve never been separated since, even when we went to different colleges or when i got married, through all the hardships of life and even though i live in another city now we ve managed to stay close and she`s been so wonderful and understanding throught it all.

now, she`s realllllllllllllllllllllly sick, she has been in the intensive care department for about a month now,she lives on blood transfusions and no one has actually said it but i think she`s dying, i ve only managed to see her once but she and her family made it clear they need to pass this hard time in private and i respect that but i m really worried about her, i can`t imagine that she could actualy day " sob7an el 7ay alazy la yamout" i mean i know we r all gonna die someday but u don`t think it happens to young people, i guess it`s the ego and stubidity of the mankind, thinking that if u r young u r invincible

nothing feels the same anymore without knowing that she`s there, and the pain she must be feeling and the suffering she must be going through, i m going crazy worrying about her and it`s like everytime the phone rings my heart leaps out of my body for fear of the bad news

i know there`s nothing i could do other than pray for her, so plz pray for her everyone

"RABENA YESHFEKY and we ve W YE3FY 3ANEK YA RAB YA REHAM"

yesterday, i was a girl..2day i m a mom (1}

I remember it was almost night tme, i could barely open my eyes or form a sentence in my mind, i was only thinking, "GOD, THIS IS SO MUCH PAIN, WHY AM I HURTING ALL OVER LIKE THAT, AND WHAT ABOUT HER, IS SHE OKAY? WHERE IS SHE? I VE TO MAKE SURE SHE`S FINE, AND SAFE AND WARM". and with every litlle part of will inside me i started to gather my thoughts and forced myself to ask with my eyes closed inbetween my screams of pain" Is she okay? is my daughter okay?" but no one was answering, i was being lifted and laid on the bed by several peple, again i shouted "somebody tell me how is my daughter?", i started to open my eyes and hazy pictures of familiar faces started to form infront of me, i looked for my doctor, and there he was checking my pulse and temp., i looked up with my eyes filled with tears and hoping to hear an answer to my question, the most important question i ve ever asked or cared to be answered, and then he smiled and said " you are both fine, ur c-section went on okay and u r now the mom of a healthy little baby girl" i kept looking at him and again he answered the unasked"honestly, i m not lying to you, she is perfect" and i felt something tightening around my fingers, it was my husband`s hands, i found his face and there it was the most beautiful smile i ve ever seen light his face, he said " thank GOD u r both safe and sound, i love you" he laid a kiss on my forehead and only then all the pain was gone, nothing else in the world mattered, i closed my eyes and with a peaceful sigh fell into the darkeness grabbing at me.